my testimony

I’m sorry in advance if I have a lot of grammar mistakes. English is my second language.

My name is Alireza fereshtehnejad known as Alireza  vollucci, since I changed my last name a few years ago, but you can call me Ali, since we are going to be friends. I was born and raised in the city of Isfahan in Iran. I emigrated to the United States around 2009, I moved to Sacramento California first since my uncle lived there. I started working many places such as radio station, subway and as a security guard it was around 2011 that I met my ex-wife, we started dating and I asked her to marry me very quick we where madly in love but her parents looked down on me because I wasn’t educated and successful like them, because of that I decided to join US Army to prove myself to them. I wasn’t the best husband to her, but I worked really hard, one night after a long argument she told me she wanted to divorce me, my world fell on my head, how Could I live without the love of my life? Any way I struggled for a while until I met my second wife on a dating app. I asked her to marry me and with a lot of struggles we rented a house and moved in I was working as a security guard, 16 plus hours shifts every day I tried to do anything she wanted for her, travels, jewelry… One night we had an argument to be honest I can’t remember what was it about. But she decided her life will be better without me, so she grabbed the 22 caliber revolver I bought for her and pointed at my head,

A few days later I woke up in hospital but I wasn’t able to see anything or move. I screamed and a voice told me you are in the hospital because you shot yourself in the head , that’s what she told them and because I didn’t remember anything I didn’t argue, but I couldn’t think of a reason why I wanted to end my life. After a long time in the hospital I was getting really depressed because I was not allowed to have visitors, due to COVID 19 pandemic. I was keep screaming at God and I was telling him why don’t you help me?, I forgot to tell you that I became a Christian in Army.

So I called the nurse and I wanted to say I want to talk to a pastor but I could not remember the world pastor, I was trying to explain them what I wanted but due to I wasn’t able to talk clearly they could not understand me, finally I got frustrated and told th them I want to talk to Holly father, the nurse laughed and said you want to talk to Jesus? Finally one of the nurses said I think he want the priest , I move my head in agreement, they contacted the chaplain in the hospital unfortunately I can’t remember his name. He was so good to me he paid for me and spent time with me almost every day. Finally after wonderful hospital staff helped me , and all the prayers, one night middle of night I woke up and noticed I can move my prlized hand and fingers. I pushed the nurse button by my side my favorite nurse came in and asked if I’m ok? Soundly I decided to joke with her I showed her my prlized hand middle finger lol and she screamed everyone ran in the room, she told the Ali can move his hand so doctor came in and tested my movements and we found out I also can move my toes, so I was healed the treatment team started new physical therapy sessions for me after working so hard with my wonderful therapist April I stard walking with holding walls the with cane.  Nobody could believe how fast I was showing improvement. Athe same time I was beginning my doctor to discharge me from hospital, but she was telling me I could improve a lot more if I stay couple more months, but I insisted to be discharged, so she listened to me. My crazy ex-wife picked me up with my wheel chair and took me home. , but she was super mean to me , she starved me and even punched me few times when I was on the wheel chair. After a while I found out she was collecting disability on my name and was keeping the money and she didn’t even pay the bills or fed me. I was able to call my mother in Idaho and ask her to come save me.

She sent her husband Jim to come pick me up I forgot to take all my valuables from there. I just took my computer and even forgot my important documents. I finally moved in with my mom and stepfather in the city of Caldwell. I had to report my car and motorcycle because I wasn’t able to work for 3 years. I was able to connect with the local church and pastor Daniel soon through Instagram, he helped me to get a ride to church every week. I made a lot of good friends that are helping me get stronger in my faith. After 3 years of retirement, I decided I’m ready to go to work again, I applied for the Amazon warehouse in Nampa. I also was able to pass a driving test and get my license back and drive again. Any way I started working in Amazon wearhouse it was very hard to stand on my feet for 10 hours a day I was keep getting sick and migraines would come after one another I decided to quit after a few months until someone referred me to school bus company to be special needs childrens Monitor on the bus it is a very rewarding job and I fall in love with the job even though I moved to a different district to do the same job I’m still enjoying helping the children. Even though I don’t make much money, I love the job. I go to work from 5 am to around 6 pm every day but on the weekends. It’s challenging since my left eye is still blind and I’m limping, but like someone wise once told me: everything you do you do as a job it is for the Lord with that mindset I’m able to keep going and work hard to take care of the Gods children the way he wants me to. I intend to catch myself whispering “thank you Jesus” a lot, someone at work caught me a few times saying that, and she told me why you keep thanking your God after what he did to you ? I usually don’t debate with people about my faith because I believe I don’t have enough knowledge, but that day Holly Spirit helped me I told her what won’t kill you makes you stronger humans when they want harden steel they heat it substantially and suddenly cool it done to shock the steel and make it stronger. I believe that’s what God did with me, he is making me stronger. And I do feel spiritually stronger.